I'm sad today

I'm sad today.  You know the cliche "it goes too fast?" Well, it does.  It goes WAY too fast.  Landon started preschool this morning in the Beginners room at Circle of Love.  I am not ready for him to start. It's only 2 mornings a week but it's 2 mornings more than I want him to be away from me.  He's still my little guy.  He sleeps with a pacifier.  He carries his pillow everywhere.  He insists on being held as opposed to walking when we go out places.  He loves to snuggle me every single morning and night.  He's my little snuggle bunny.

Last week we went to look at the Beginners room.  I thought that when he turned 3 (in January) we would start him.  But then, I also kind of thought I would keep him at home until next August.  After all, he is such a sweet kid.  He loves to be home playing with his trains or "helping" me. Well, this room has 2 bunnies that run around the room with the kids, a baby possum, a fish tank and 3 birds.  There's a train table, play doh, playmobile villages....all this is much cooler than Mommy.  That's when it started.  "I want to go to school!" After numerous fits, I thought I would start him in school in November.  He changed my mind when he drew on the walls with a blue crayon while I nursed Aspen and pulled all of the toilet paper off the roll in the bathroom.  He didn't cry or ask for me when I left the room today.  He's perfectly happy at school.  We'll see how he does when I pick him up today!!

Of course I'm also weaning Aspen as we prepare for her 1 year birthday.  It is so sad to watch the babies grow up! I love them getting bigger and bigger but it is also sad.  Anyhow, just kind of weepy today about my baby growing up.  Anyone who has been a mom can understand these feelings.