Why am I telling you this? I'm not rubbing it in, really. I'm telling you where I am so I can set the scene. We've spent the past 9 days relaxing, going on long walks, watching the kids play in the pool and eating incredible food. The Four Seasons has a Kids For All Seasons program. Children ages 5+ can spend from 9-5 at kid's club making crafts, doing sports and exploring the grounds. My kids love it and we spend more time begging them to come with us than we do asking them to go! Brian and I have popped Maisy in the stroller and gone for 5-7 mile walks every single day of this trip. It's been ideal. IDEAL.
So we met a kind of associate of Brian's. He's 61 and he was QUITE upset to find out that he is older than my Father. Funny. Oh well; sad for him. Anyhow, we were telling him about past trips and future trips. When he asked if we had been to Four Seasons Bora Bora (my hat), I said we went in June, just the 2 of us.
We kept talking and I told him how I had accurately predicted on our first date that I would marry Brian. I later predicted that we would have 4 kids; 2 boys and then 2 girls. He laughed and asked what else I had predicted. I said "nothing good" and brushed it off, but he pressed. I said "I predict that I will die at 45, like my mom did. I have the same gene she did."
And that is my "why". And my "why" ruins people's fun. He asked earlier "You know, you aren't supposed to do all of this until you are 60." I responded, "What if I don't make it that long?" Most people brush off this observation/question. No one wants to entertain the question that you don't make it to be 50 or 60. And yet, my mom didn't. I have the gene. So....
This is my why:
Why I homeschool my kids
Why I travel so much
Why I don't bullshit people around me
Why I don't do what I don't want to do
Why I fill my life with people who I truly love
Why I go to the gym 5-6 days a week
Why I eat a healthy diet
Why I love fully, completely
Why I spend the money I make
Why I put away money for my kids
Why I love my husband so hard
Why I love my children so much
Why I never leave questions unanswered
Why I had MAJOR surgery in February 2016
Why
Why
Why...
To some people, a diagnosis or a gene, may not affect them in the same way. But watching your mother suffer and take her last breaths of air, to watch her wish and pray that she makes it to her next birthday, makes you really question the idea of putting things off that can be done today.
So, yes, I know we aren't really supposed to be doing this until we are 60. But you know what? I'm going to because what if I don't make it that long? Happy 35th to me on December 7th. I have 10 more years, as far as I am concerned. I am going to make good use of them.
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