As a mom, the scariest thing I can think of is not being able to protect my children. The idea that my children are, somehow, unsafe, and I can't do anything about it. Just the very thought of this is enough to make me want to put my wings over my ducklings and shelter them from everything. Everything. I know that's not the "right" way to raise children. They grow and learn from different kinds of experiences. They need to be around alternative circumstances so they can grow. Given this week's experience, however, I find myself fighting a battle in my brain.
The idea of homeschooling 4 small and needy children makes my skin crawl. I worry about the social needs of these children, especially Hunter who is SO social. I worry about the interactions they would miss at recess and learning to share and how to take turns. They need to learn how to take instruction from people other than mom and dad, in addition to respecting authority figures. School is important.
However. And that's a giant however. However, the school system is kind of broken. The kids don't learn a lot everyday and I am confident that I could do a much better job of teaching them. They could learn better, faster, and more at home with me. We wouldn't be a slave to the school schedule, which means we could travel and explore the world. We could learn about the life cycle in Africa and about Pompeii in, well, Pompeii. Also, I wouldn't have to worry about school shootings. I wouldn't have to wonder if my kids were alright at school. I wouldn't walk and drive by the school 4 times in a 4 hour period just to make sure the security guard is still standing outside the gates. I don't know if my heart can handle having them in school.
So, I guess I will sit here and think about it a little bit longer. And I will worry every day for the rest of my life that something or someone could hurt them when they are out of my arms. Maybe I just won't let them out of my arms.
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1 comment:
hi friend. this is a constant discussion at our house. not really the whole *me* homeschooling. but some other option ... because to be honest i couldnt do it. but i cant handle the way schools are *out there* either.
so let me know if you find a solution :o) and if not ... maybe ill just send LBJ to your house for the year. like boarding school. lol
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